Being aware . . .

    Being aware of who we are is important . Remembering that we have the light of the maker in us makes us worthy of good things.
     Remembering that we have it in us to do good for man and beast. We need to try our best to spread the positive energy we have so we can keep our spiritual battery charged.
     My job makes it hard for me to remember some of theses things. I see too many people who are druggies , thieves and liars. These people don't try to better themselves . I have to admit I have gotten harder of heart because of their behaviors I have to deal with.
      I try to be aware of the good people in my life away from work and express my care and affection for them. One day at a time. :)

Thankfulness

    Thanksgiving is a good day to give thanks and to be grateful for our blessings. Being thankful
is an everyday thing. The little things add up and spreading the blessings makes us feel better too.
   Maybe if we could all be kinder in the ways we can we could see even more of our blessings.
 

The little things . . .

    The little things take up so much room in your heart. The smile of your loved ones. The smile in your heart when you have been given flower by the one you love. The laughter of a joke only you and your friend get.
     The pebble a child picked up to give you or the laugh of a baby. When the neighborhood stray cat rubs your legs and lets you pet her.
     When looking back on life there aren't a lot of huge deal makers that make you happy but the little ones add up to the happy in your heart.
   

Do your best . . .

   Life isn't always easy. Everyone knows this .It is how we deal with that information that can make our lives different . Trying to be ready for what you want in life makes more sense than anything else.
When the mountain seems too tall take the climb one step at a time.
   I know someone who is out of shape , a general unhealthy. They claim they want someone in their life but they really don't take the steps to be ready for being in a relationship. The steps will be baby steps in the beginning but they have to take the steps to get to the next level. Other people have some expectations of who they want to share their lives with. Walking and holding hands , dancing , hiking or what other activities that make them happy and bring joy to their life.Yes, get ready for what you want !
    We humans often get paralyzed with fear and anxiety . Some times it is due to a trauma or painful life experience . We have to try to strive to do our best for that day , everyday. Oh I know it isn't always so easy. Do the best you can that day. I had a time so dark that days , weeks , months even years were just a blur of I could barely breathe. I had friends that would keep in touch with me and let a sliver of light in my darkened world and God bless them for not just running the other way. Some gave up and I understand why but I wish they could have stuck around.
      I see the time that passed me by and it makes me sad and mad. I wish I had gotten help sooner. That fear thing is strong and powerful.  I wish the fear made more sense to me. Excepting that it was what it was and that I did the best I could at the time is not always easy but it is unchangeable. Now that I don't live in the dark I take that as real progress. I have days filled with anxiety that make me feel physically sick ! I have sad days that feel so empty. But I never want to slide back into a world of darkness and no hope.
     I try to be supportive to others in the bad times. Maybe it's just a "thinking about you" post on Facebook or a short text . I know we all have our battles but I want them to know I care.

A day to remember . . .

It is Veterans Day. Thank you to all who served. My Dad served in Korea. Semper Fi !

I have some difficult people I have to deal with in my life & I really don't want too. This adulting stuff is highly over rated. But I bite my lip & keep doing what I have to. I have never understood why people we work with take such joy in being assholes. It doesn't make one thing better.
Why do some people think they are better than others ?
They aren't. Some have more experience , which I can respect on some level. But for people who have less experience than me and think they deserve something more really piss me off.

I have people in my personal life that are difficult , They might disagree with my feelings about them but be assured they are difficult. People should have some common sense . If it isn't yours don't use it , don't eat it , don't move it , don't drink it !  Having roommates is way harder than it should be. I live with adults but feel like they are little kids.  I feel like I constantly try to keep the balance of peace in the house.

I long for more peace in my life but it doesn't seem that it will happen anytime soon.

Dare to be . . .

Don't get me wrong , I know that anxiety is killer but do one thing that is good for you .
I struggle with this but I keep trying. Some days are easier than others that is usually the case . But never stop trying.
There were times that my world was so dark that all I could do was clean the kitchen sink. I am not kidding. Thank God I had friends that would check on me or I might have disappeared.
Dare to be sober.
Dare to leave a bad relationship.
Dare to love your self.
Dare to walk one block from your house and back.
Dare to be your best.

No matter where you are in life you just have to do your best to take that extra step for you .
 "The journey of a thousand miles starts with the first step."  Lao Tzu

Sharing is a way to grow .

This is the first of many posts I hope that will draw people to see that life isn't perfect but it is how we grow. I have had many different experiences in life and I realize we grow until we die.
Life will never be perfect because people aren't perfect but we can do our best. We can change what we can , help where it is possible and share some smiles along the way.

This is my life so you will get what is on my mind and what is happening with me. It can be as simple as a hockey score , a new picture , a learning event that happened with others. Working on being my best and sharing the ride .

It is too easy to fall in the trap of I can't make a difference. We all can make a difference is our lives or the life of another. Maybe just passing on a smile to a stranger can give a little hope where it is need at the time. You may never know what small thing make a big difference in an others life .